I Always. . . Sing Chandler at least one lullaby before bed. His favorite is Return to Pooh Corner by Kenny Loggins.
Watch Kevin drive away at night until his car is completely out of sight waving and blowing kisses the whole time. (This drives him nuts)Cry during pocahontas
I Sometimes. . .
Run scenarios in my head. Like my latest scenario was while I was waiting for Kevin to answer his door. After standing for 2 minutes to no answer I began to think "What if he is in there with a girl, and he cant answer the door cause there is nowhere for her to hide". And then I started thinking "what if someone broke into his house to steal his massive dvd collection and left him for dead." Come to find out he was just getting his mail. Obviously! I know its sick, but I always think the worst things have happened. Eat more candy or drink more Dr. Pepper than I should, and its starting to show.
Cry during Sylvan Learning Center commercials.
I Never. . .
Get where I need to be on time. I think I have got it in my head that everywhere in the valley will only take a 15 minutes drive. Its definitely not true, and I really need to start leaving earlier. It just always feels like I have all the time in the world, then I look at my clock and its already too late to leave early.
Have been out of the country. I have also never been east of Colorado.
Take my son or Kevin for granted. I am so blessed to have them both in my life. Chandler is my all time favorite person in the world. He is a handful but when I am down he can always sense it, and makes sure to cuddle me until I feel all better. And Kevin is my hero. He never fails to amaze me. He puts up with my crazy personality, loves me endlessly, and is so completely selfless.
I Believe. . .
That 2 people really can live happily ever after. All it takes is a lot of work, patience, sacrifice, communication, time apart, level headedness, time for business/time for play, trust, faithfulness, no trash talking, special time, and patience patience patience.
I will never truly figure out what love means. Every time I think I have it figured out God throws something else at me to show me I still havent felt all the love in the world. I thought I felt love when I met Tyson. Then I met Scott. I thought I knew love with Scott, then I had Chandler. There is no greater love than that of a mother to her child. I believe that more than anything.
God is loving and forgiving and knows my heart even more than I know it.